|After a long absence, I feel it appropriate to explain my reason for such, my return, and what I hope to accomplish. Please bear with me. While I usually retain some ambiguity in regards to my personal life, the reception of certain notes via email and this wiki have prompted me to open up a little more, and for that, I want to thank those of you who cared.
A matter of weeks prior to my leave I was diagnosed with a brain tumor, which, while benign, would require surgery to remove. For those who have ever stopped by this page, you are aware that my health is the greatest burden I bear. Finding myself a cancer patient, coupled with my insomnia, chronic pain, and immobility led me into a state of depression. To be quite frank, I have struggled with depression for many years - a result of the life I lead - but never have I succumbed so completely to it. I was taken into the hospital for surgery shortly after temporarily quitting the UESP, when my grandparents were struck in an automobile accident by a teenage girl well over the legal intoxication limit. My grandmother died as a result of the impact, while, for a matter of days, I shared a bed in the same hospital as my grandfather ere he passed away.
A few days ago, following my return from physical therapy - for my legs - I was allowed to use the computer again. As a result of my lifestyle, the majority of socializing I take part in occurs online. For this matter, I was...touched to see how many friends and acquaintances around the net inquired how I was, and when I was coming back. Eventually, I found my way here.
Obviously, a great deal has changed since last I was an active editor at the UESP, and I'm overjoyed to see that. That much aside, I want to apologize to those of you who I left without an explanation, and the articles and promises I left unfinished. I also owe an apology to those of you who contacted me on my discussion page and via email for aid with an article, a simple inquiry, or just to say hello. I'm sorry.
I do not plan to resume my place as an active editor, nor even as a greatly contributing one. I lack the time and strength for that effort. Most of my "Projects" listed above will go unfulfilled by me, though I hope someone else will pick up the slack. This is not to say that I will never submit another article, merely that I will be expending less effort in their creation.
Update: February 5th, 2007
I feel somewhat better than before, although I cannot seem to shake my feelings of lethargy and an oppressive stillness. I'll be performing some random edits over the next week, but nothing major. On a community-based note, I'm disappointed to see the departure of certain editors I had come to think of as my friends. I wish them luck in the Wikiscrolls project, although I would rather they reconsider staying. There's so much I could say on this subject alone, however, I am hardly qualified to speak. Good luck.